Frustration! Argh!
Jan 31 ~ I am feeling pretty discouraged and frustrated today. I guess it is just all part of the roller coaster. But I don’t like the way I am feeling. I told another IVFer a couple days ago that I was feeling very calm about all of this. I realized that I had done everything I could do and it was out of my hands and I was at peace about it all. Today that feeling is out the window. I am not enjoying the ride at the moment.
When I went to my follicle U/S appointment on Thursday the 28th, everything looked good still 15 good size follies and quite a few followers. The NP mentioned that they weren’t as large as they would like to see at that point. So, the doc came in and had a look as well. He agreed and had me have my estrogen checked. Assuming that my estrogen was low and he was going to have me start estrogen patches. Turns out my estrogen is high. How is that even possible? So, they lowered my doses. Had to go back Friday same situation, doses lowered. Went back today, same situation. Doses lowered and either the doc who did the U/S today was impatient and only measured the largest or quite a few of my follies are not growing at all.
The odd part about this all is that yesterday my E2 was only 1800 on day 7 of stims. That doesn’t seem very high to me. I don’t know what it is today, because M talked to the doc when he called, but even if it was 2800 I am on day 8, from what I have seen on the message boards, these seem like fairly normal numbers.
I am kind of assuming at this point that we are going to get cancelled. Which is super frustrating, but I don’t know what else they can do. I think by essentially stopping the meds we will end up with a lot of immature follicles, but if we keep going I am at extreme risk for OHSS. Apparently, my E2 levels are an indication that I have more follicles that they can see on the U/S.
My doctor is out of town until Monday for a family emergency so I have been seeing a colleague of his. Doc C (not my doc) says we just need to “tiptoe through the next couple of days and everything will be fine”. I for some reason don’t have a lot of faith at this point. I will wait until I see Doc T on Monday prior to pushing the subject, but I don’t want to continue on with stims and end up with a severe case of OHSS, but I don’t want to keep going without them and have a bunch of immature/empty follicles. What to do? What to do?
I want that feeling of peace back.
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3 comments:
I'm just not following why your doctor thinks your estrogen was too high.... mine was nearly 2000 on day nine... and nearly 12000 when we finally triggered. They upped my fsh for the last five days of stims and we got 22 mature eggs.
I'm going to tell you what I would do - trust the doctor. Every body is different and they are very well trained professionals who want to make sure your cycle is smooth and successful. Perhaps they want some of the smaller follicles to catch up - that's what makes the most sense to me. Just have faith - have they indicated that they actually might cancel the cycle? I'm pulling for you!!
A fellow IF friend once told me "don't borrow trouble." Put your faith in your doctor (or interim doctor) and assume this cycle will be a "go." If you are told otherwise at some point in the future, you will obviously deal with that then. In the mean time, try (and i know this isn't always easy) to keep the positive thoughts and energy flowing. Hopefully you will be rewarded for it. I too am pulling for you!
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