First Trimester Screening and Vacation pics

I am going to keep this short, it is late and I am super tired, but I really wanted to do an update. I have been completely neglecting my blog.

We spent two weeks sitting on the beach in Cabo. It was very relaxing, but the heat isn’t the best place for a nervous pregnant chick. I found myself questioning every little thing. But we still had a great time. Here are a few pics.

We got home late last Thursday and Friday afternoon I had my first trimester screening. We debated about not going but ultimately decided to do. First, we would get to see Bernie again. Second, if there is something wrong at least we would be prepared. But there is absolutely nothing wrong! At least that they can see this early in the pregnancy.

The ultrasound was incredible! I have never seen an Ultrasound like that. It was so clear you could count his little fingers and see the butterfly shape of his brain and see the spine. He was bouncing all over and doing flips. He is even measuring 3days ahead. Both M and I were in complete awe. I am actually kind of wishing I had taken Lou with. She would have loved it. It was really, really incredible.

I got my Down Syndrome odds a couple days ago, there is a 1 in 1,500 chance of this baby having Down Syndrome. The average risk is 1 in 800 so I am feeling pretty good with those results.

Over all it was worth it.

I need to do a new belly pic. I will try and get one this weekend. I just seem to be so tired all the time it is hard to keep up with everything.

Vacation and an Update

Sorry I haven't been blogging.  I have been crazy busy.  We went to see family in CO last weekend and we are getting ready for our annual family vacation to Cabo next week.  I will be gone for two full weeks and I have one of those jobs where when I am gone my work waits. There is no one to do my work for me.  It is nice to know I am needed but it stinks when I need a break.  I was talking to my boss the other day about maternity leave and she cried.  She really doesn't want me to take an extended maternity leave.  We will see.  It is good to know I am needed, but sometimes it is hard to be so needed.

As far as Bernie and I, we are doing good as far as I know.  I had another appointment almost two weeks ago.  I was really nervous and scared.  But everything went perfectly.  We got to see Bernie's hb again as well as hear it.  A perfect 154bpm.  

I have another appointment on Wednesday.  I don't really want to go.  If there is something wrong I really don't want to know before I go on vacation.  I want to have a nice vacation.  I don't want to be depressed and bleeding.

The weird thing about it all is that I am not really nervous.  When I lost the baby in April 09 I was a wreck for weeks before I found out.  I just had a gut feeling something was wrong.  This time I am completely at peace.  I don't know why I am so peaceful this time.  Does that mean everything is ok with Bernie? Or does it mean that I have accepted that there is nothing I can do to change the outcome?  

I wish I had answers.  I wish I could see the future and know whether Bernie is my Rainbow baby or not.  But right now I am at peace.  But I still don't want to know until after my vacation if something is wrong.  There is no way out of it though.  I have to go.  If everything is fine they need to start weaning me off my meds.  

One day at a time.   Right?